It’s been a rough end to 2017 and beginning of 2018 with the natural disasters (fires & mudslides) in my area. Thankfully my family is safe, but I haven’t escaped the effects of the devastation. It’s hard for me to put into words the heaviness I’ve carried in my heart. It’s made it difficult to stay excited and focused on my goals for the 2018 triathlon season.
When Fit Approach invited me to partner with Gixofit for the #IAmLimitless campaign it couldn’t have come at a better time. I wasn’t looking to make any resolutions for 2018, but I do have goals and changes I’ve been striving to make a permanent part of my lifestyle. The word LIMITLESS just really resonated with me.
Anxiety, whixh I’ve battled with for years, slowly begin to rear it’s ugly head again. It got so bad I ended up in the ER (as shared in this recent Instagram post) on New Year’s Eve. In the past I would let anxiety take me to a place where fear took over and would stop doing the things I loved. I REFUSE to go down that path again. I worked too hard to get where I am today….listening to the desires in my heart and acting on them, rather than staying stuck somewhere I am unhappy and letting the fears in my head rule.
This blog follows my triathlon pursuits. I believe triathlon (along with my husband and family) are the reasons I’ve been able to overcome anxiety and limitations (which all stemmed from fear). I overcame my fear of open water swimming, sharks, riding a bike on the open road, and probably the biggest thing holding me back… fear of FAILURE.
I went to film school and earned a degree in Screenwriting. Rather than following my dream of becoming a writer and penning a screenplay that would someday make it to the big screen, I took the safer route and got a job at an agency. I spent years working my way up the ladder and settled for a career I was not happy with (although I tried to convince myself I was). I realize now I had convinced myself I wasn’t a good enough writer, I’d never make a living or become successful at it…I was scared I would FAIL, so I never even tried.
I have since learned through triathlon that I AM LIMITLESS despite my fears and that it doesn’t matter if I fail. I DNF’d my first 70.3 attempt. In the past I would have been ashamed to admit this and would have moved on to something else silently. Hell I might have never even attempted one…it took 5 years in the sport to work my way up to believing I could do that distance.
I didn’t let that “failure” stop me from pursuing my passion. Less than 6 months later I attempted a 70.3 again and it was one of the best races of my life… setting the tone for an amazing 2017 season where I set new PR’s and competed at the USAT Age Group Nationals. Overcoming that failure helped me to really believe that I was LIMITLESS and could achieve anything.
I’m taking that attitude and mindset with me into 2018. I have even bigger goals and dreams now. I want to make it to the 2019 70.3 World Championships in France and complete a full Ironman in 2019. 2018 is about continuing the journey to these goals and putting in the work while knowing I CAN and WILL achieve them.
I even believe I can get to the ultimate dream of KONA and on a more personal level, I have plans to complete that screenplay that I’ve held onto for almost 20 years and actually do something with it.
What perceived limits have held you back?
This is a sponsored conversation written by me on behalf of Gixofit and Fit Approach . The opinions and text are all mine.